Where'd all the Crazy go?

As ya'll maybe know I have started studying Psychiatric Mental Health Nursing. And I find myself yet AGAIN (shocker) buried under a pile of books and papers. Haha And I have absolutely no idea why it inspired me of all things I can/have to do... (knit, run, laugh, cry, sing, travel, glob, eat, make a new friend, eat a bagel, walk the dog, go on facebook, play dragon, punch a wall, study more, just lay on the floor like a dead man) I blog!

...visualize with me (use of picture is optional). The heaviness and agony I find myself in. I cannot even take a normal breath with all of the pressure I feel on my chest (oy gryd) and body. And I search for the LIGHT...and with all the strength I have left I.......oh I'm getting bored of this story. Basically I just closed up my books and left the room. And turned on my laptop and started writing.
AnyWHoooo... Recently I have found myself kinda unstable and well...crazy (with all the psych pple around me and all the time i have spent with books and those evil little ity bitty letters).

Sometimes I hallucinate that this is occurring...boy that's gotta be frustrating. Basically what I'm trying to say is that I find it hard to keep myself mentally healthy (that doesnt mean I'm crazy people! lol). However it says in 2 Timothy "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." my own italics added.

God gives us that renewal and refresher that we so desperately need! Every step we take in this world makes our feet dirty. The filth, sickness and dirt of this world clings to us, whether we want it or not. However its God's promises like these that make me SO GLAD. God can wash us right up!

When God talks about how Christ loves the church in Ephesians 5, God understand that we get dirty and He says "that He [Christ] might sanctify and cleanse her [church] with the washing of water by the word, that he might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she might be holy and without blemish."

Its so amazing that God even promises to protect and wash and renew our minds for us...through the word, through the Holy Spirit (titus 3:5). After learning about all the scary things that go on in "sick" people's minds I find such comfort knowing God has my heart and mind in His hand. And He even wants to renew and refresh my mind for me.

He can renew your mind, your passions, your thoughts, your heart. God can, if you ask, instill His OWN passions and thoughts and heart and mind into you.

Accept my APOLOGY

I get very discouraged when I Dont understand the blog world so I gave up. I am sorry Lesya, Diana and any secret stalkers.

Does Anyone Feel the same way?

Diana, don't use this against me in the future :P
My question to you all, when your room is a crazy mess do you feel like your life is a crazy mess also?
Because I totally think that. Or am I being a little OCD?
idk but it drives me nuts.

I'm Back

Haha im back. This is quite simple actually. I feel like my stress levels are so high that i cannot even function..ughhh..
My car stopped today in the middle of 104. And i just burst out crying. I was talking on the phone with mama and i just broke down. I think its not just car problems that made me have a spaz attack i think its everything thats crashing down on me right now.
and i have bucket loads of stuff to learn and know in the next 3 weeks.
but i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. and prayer wouldn't hurt right about now!
love Tanya

Under Construction

Dear Friends, I do not know what I am doing. Hopefully when school ends I can further dive into this blog world without fear. 

Tata for now!